Trying to sleep with my eyes wide open

Straight up insomnia. I had a small window where I probably could've fallen into some state of "rest" but I was too busy watching something lame on TV and now I'm left staring at the ceiling. Fuck, I hate it when this happens...it's like the same four subjects are on permanent rotation in my head and I'm beyond sick of thinking about them. I just can't seem to clear my mind and visualize the ocean, summer, being kidnapped -- whatever scenario I typically try to conjure up, I got nothing. Which means that if I ever do fall asleep, I will have messed up dreams like last night (everyone went to this bar in a barn in the country and we all ended up sleeping in the barn and someone drew a tattoo of a lady on my leg, we were by the ocean at least). I don't know what to do with myself. Fighting it seems futile.

I'm always at a loss as to how I can redirect all of this energy. If only I had something organic to distract me: rain, sunrise, people, animals. Instead, currently the only thing of "interest" is the distinct sound of someone peeing in another apartment.