thinking too much

I as make a more concentrated effort to determine what it is I want to do, as opposed to what I could stand doing (yes, I know sometimes you have to do something you don't love to eventually do something you love) I've been trying to sort out in my head what I like and dislike, what my hobbies/skills are, and the most daunting -- where I see myself in the future. In the past, that phrase alone would be enough to make me crumble to the floor and start convulsing, however, I'm trying to face reality and be practical about things... oh man, did I really just say that? I hope that admission does not qualify me for grown-up status.

One example of this new introspection occurred last night, as I was eating my TV dinner of Fettuccini Alfredo and drinking juice straight from the carton I started wondering what exactly my meal said about me. Seriously, probably nothing more than that I was too hungry to make something real and I get deranged satisfaction from finishing off the carton and not having to use a glass, neat.

Another example, is the following word list. I've kept a document on my computer (since the beginning of last spring?) that I can access quickly to check spelling (also, is it one word or two?)/find synonyms for posts, away messages, handwritten notes when I'm too busy to bother with my "Desk Dictionary and Thesaurus." Some of them are obvious, though I frequently second guess my spelling or usage. ANYWAY, I even took it upon myself to analyze the list (ridiculous).

Daiquiris
Truelove
Endeavor
Pageant
each other
Requiem
Tornado
Tornadoes
Tornados
Missile
Counterintuitive
Possum
Opossum
gluing
Mischievous
Self-conscious
Labeled
Mislabeled
Overestimated
Underestimated
shoulder blade
Achy
Scavenging
Caviar
Reupholstered
Paperweight

Strange, yes? I remember what some of them relate back to; when it comes right down to it, they're just a bunch of average words that I should be confident about using correctly. Wow, it's beginning to look like I have a lot of time on my hands.