masochist

Next time I wake up at 2:00 in the morning and decide to think about every "relationship" I've "had" in the past three years, IN EXCRUTIATING DETAIL, I think I'll just opt to amputate a toe or something, instead. It'd be much more quick and painless... probably allow me to fall back to sleep easier. Hhhh, and I didn't even need my records for this whole absurd process, probably due to the fact that I have so deligently recorded EVERYTHING. Ya know, I understand why people burn things they've written -- the whole thing is very appealing to me right now. Although, I suppose getting rid of the evidence wouldn't get rid of the memories.